Denver: the Mile-High City Today
Katherine Fleming, who somehow finds
time around the edges of her bi-coastal, intercontinental professional life to
be an exemplary wife, mother, and daughter, is encouraging me to go full-bore
autobiographical in some of my blog posts.
Though my protestations of a poor memory are sincere and appropriate, I
am willing to give it a try, as I did in a previous post dealing with two or
three fugitive memories of my birthplace, Gary, Indiana. The next acts were played out in Baxter
County, Arkansas, in the Ozarks, which I would come to speak of as my home, to
the degree I had one, and in Denver, Colorado, where I spent the War years
living with my maternal grandparents in a house, still extant when I last
checked about twenty years ago, at 1600 Albion Street in Park Slope on the east
side of the city.
My mother’s family name was Janet
Elizabeth Davidson (1909-1979). Her
father, James Alexander (Alex) Davidson, was a railroad engineer who spent many
years working for the Denver and Rio Grande Railroad Company on a narrow-gauge line
that began in Salida, Colorado, and ran down, eventually, to Lordsburg, New
Mexico. This is probably among the most
scenic railroad geography in the world.
And in his day, it could be exciting.
He told me that on his very first trip to that destination, he found
most of the town’s citizens industriously engaged in hanging a man. Grandad Davidson was a native-born American
of immigrant Irish parents. Janet’s mother,
Cora Louise Nelson, of English stock, was an orphan girl born in Vincennes,
Indiana, but mainly raised by a great aunt on the Red River in northeast
Texas. This woman, whom I of course
never met, was named Montgomery, and referred to by my grandmother, with
affection, as “Auntie Gommer”. I do not
know how Cora Louise came to be a school teacher in Salida, but it was there
she met and married Alex. The eldest of
the four offspring of James Alexander and Cora Louise, who must have been born some
years before 1900, was Vincent, to whom I owe my own middle name. He was for my grandmother a never-ending
grief, a perfect first-born young man struck down in youth by dread disease
(poliomyelitis?), living first on crutches and then with an amputated leg. He died before quite having come to his
majority. As a father I can but
speculate about the effect of this loss on the parents, but it seems to have
been an indelible sadness, and perhaps unhealthily repressed. To my grandmother Davidson I owe many debts,
but especially my serious, if unfortunately slacking and intermittent,
engagement with Christian church life, which continues to be an important aspect of my
world view.
These were the heady days of
democracy in America. My grandfather, a
railroad engineer, was (with several other proletarians) an elected member of
the state legislature. When his second child,
a female, was born, she was officially given
the unusual Christian name Heartz by
legislative act. A Mrs. Heartz had
been the first elected female legislator in the new state, and I believe was
still serving at the time. About
twenty-five years ago, at one of the fancy dos I used to attend, I met a high
official in the current Colorado legislature who was interested in this story
and later did a little research and sent me the confirmatory results.
There are mysteries surrounding my
mother. Physically, she was striking,
slightly more than six feet tall. She
had been married to, and divorced from, a man referred to as Van. His full name was VanDeventer, and he was a
native of Elberon, New Jersey. (This
coastal place appears to be about forty miles due east of where I now live, and
may now be a neighborhood rather than a geographical entity.) But around 1928 Van was trying to find a gold
mine in the Rockies. There is a
Vandeventer Street in Princeton, which I ought to try and research a bit. Van was the biological father of my elder
brother—so technically half brother--Peter,
though neither Pete nor anybody else had any sense of “halfness”, and never
expressed interest in exploring it. There
is much that is opaque about this first marriage of my mother, which played no
part in her later life.
The war had hardly begun before my
father (Marvin Dale Fleming) enlisted in the Navy and it was decided that my
mother, my two brothers, and I would take up residence with my maternal
grandparents in Denver. Here precise
memory fails me. All I actually remember
is that one day I was somewhere and another I was in Colorado. In all the years I knew him, that is, the War
years, my grandfather Alex was already very old and totally blind. He seemed to me infinitely noble, patient,
heroic even. He spent his days in a
living room armchair endlessly listening to the news, practically all of it war
news. The radio was huge and somehow
rather ecclesiastical in appearance, topped with a Gothic arch. He moved about a bit, having memorized the
route to the bathroom with such perfection that he always made the trip with
the same number of counted footsteps and the precise repositionings of his walking stick. He
became expert at lighting and relighting his unseen pipe with unseen matches,
and we simply learned to live with the daily fire hazard. The house is still there: still 1600 Albion
Street.
One day I had the following strange
encounter. After ascertaining that
nobody else was in the house, Grandad asked me, “Johnny, do you ever play with
yourself?” I was puzzled. “Yes, I guess, if there is nobody else to
play with.” I had in mind that vast
imaginative world to which all young children have access, in which they by an
interior magic become explorers, inventors, war heroes. Only years later did I realize that my
grandad was talking about masturbation, concerning which, at the age of eight, I
was innocent and of course uncomprehending.
But though I had not the slightest idea what he was talking about, I was
nonetheless shocked to hear the confidential attribution of his blindness to having
played with himself seventy years earlier.
Our neighborhood was surprisingly
“multicultural”. Just across the way was
a sweet old couple of Italian speakers.
A German-American neighbor named Geiseking, an enthusiastic ham radio
guy, had set up in his back yard a kind of miniature Eiffel Tower. There were several Jewish families living in
the neighborhood. I remember being
nearly awestruck by the old, bearded grandfather of one acquaintance who in the
summer sat endlessly reading on his side porch, eye glasses a half inch thick,
hair wild like a woman’s. I also came to
realize that the Jews, like the Christians, came in different
denominations. One Jewish contemporary
of mine, speaking scornfully of another, said “He calls himself a Jew, but he…”
(unfortunately I cannot remember the specific disqualifying vice practiced by
the pseudo-Hebrew.) Funnily enough, one
of the Jewish kids in the group sort of blipped across my radar fifty years
later as having spent a long career as a teacher of Dante’s Commedia at Wesleyan University and a
fellow Rhodes Scholar of 1958. What are
the chances?
At the time I was unaware of the
tensions and frictions that our invasion of four had inflicted on my already
elderly grandmother, but I later came to realize that they had been substantial
and contributed substantially to the already difficult situation in which my
mother was living during the War years.
The house on Albion Avenue was large enough provided that my elder
brother and I slept in the attic, which was a pretty spooky and chilly place,
necessitating what seemed a long walk up a dimly lit staircase. We fought against the winter chill with
ceramic hot water bottles in the shape of pigs.
These strange warming devices had to be handled very carefully, and more
than once one of them would leak, so that we were not merely sleeping in the
cold, but in the wet cold. A child’s
view of life is often vivid, but of course very partial. Only eighty years later have I come to
understand the force of the famous French maxim attributed to Mme de StauuStSSSS
lStael, tout comprendre, c’est tout pardoner. To understand everything is to forgive
everything. And though it is never
possible to “understand everything,” I can but hope our own children can
understand and, understanding, forgive, most of it.